During many drinking sessions at the hospital club, I came to realise that most of its members are somewhat false. Sadly I didn’t realise this early enough and I took their advice seriously. I key thing I have learnt on my journey since is that you cannot have it all. You have to make choices and those choices don’t define you but change the paths you walk along.
Having not being born in the sixties, or even conceived, I wasn’t au fait with the hippy rules of “Free Love” *^
*Terms and conditions apply. ^The value of the friendship may down as well as up.
This was probably the hardest lesson I had to learn and boy did I decide to learn it the hard way. I viewed this group as friends and confidants and indeed they were friends but not of Jonathan but Mr Bitcoin. Sadly with the passing of Mr Bitcoin, my alter ego their friendship died with it. I cannot absolve myself from all responsibility; I decided to take their advice and more worryingly allowed them to invest in Bitcoin. They joined the merry party and everything was going well, the “Free Love” flowed and friendships were formed. Sadly when things started to go wrong, things changed.
My mistake was trying to manage the situation personally. This I accept was for the sake of my ego, how could my sub-contractor get into trouble? Why didn’t I know what was happening? I was Mr Bitcoin and I thought I knew everything about Bitcoin, only to find, the one thing I didn’t know was how close to the wire my subcontractor truly was. I felt like I had been sucker-punched by Mike Tyson.
It hurt and I began to disappear and leave vague messages, avoiding calls and this only annoyed them further. The truth was my mental health was fast going downhill and I was in pieces, life, as I knew it was falling apart. The cycle of rumination began, my business partner can tell you I was on a hideous Halloween inspired carousel, going faster and faster, darker and darker until I blacked out.
For their part, they stopped taking my calls, discussing me in groups behind my back, cancelling meetings with me and turning me into a social pariah. I was cut off, abandoned and left out to sea.
During one of the meetings they decided to call the police and report me, the next day I had a police officer at my front door, put in handcuffs and taken to the police station. If you have ever been arrested you’ll know the sinking feeling of shame you suffer being escorted out of your home, in handcuffs and ruminating about what the neighbours must be thinking. If I’m honest I don’t know if I actually saw a neighbour but at the time, it felt as if I’d seen everyone I’d ever met. It was humiliating.
There I was stood in my local police station, a potential criminal. I was booked in for theft and escorted to a holding cell. If you have never been a guest of Her Majesty, there is something very strange about hearing a heavy cell door shut and lock. It’s the first time as an adult; I didn’t have the freedom to leave a room. I was a prisoner; in my head I was guilty. The police must have thought so too, surely the Metropolitan police had better things to do than arrest people willy-nilly.
It felt like hours but, in reality, was probably less than one, I was interviewed, I explained the situation and I was released, without charge. I was innocent, well the police thought so and when it comes to matters of freedom, their view is the one that counts.